If You Are Seeing This Post....

You made it to 2012!!!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!
I pray that which you've ask be granted unto you in JESUS name!!!!
Just wanted to make a quick post, have to go to bed cause I have to wake up early to cook!
Lerra pipuls.
Happy New Year again!!!!!

Random Thought

I apologize for my lack of blogging. I literally have nothing interesting (as if the previous posts were interesting smh) to blog about. So here I am trying to make sure that I don't just stop blogging and in the process was thinking about something inconsequential but yet somewhat important.

Since the first time I attended a wedding the saying always use to be "I now pronounce you husband and wife" but recently I've been hearing "I now pronounce you man and wife" I never use to put serious thought into these things but while walking from the bus stop yesterday it came and this is exactly what my internal response was, "Why the hell do they make it seem like the man is not bound to the woman just as much as the woman is bound to the man?! Making it seem like he's still single talking about "man". I don't like it oooo. Mr. Pastor, Mr. Bishop, Mr. Whoever-is-presiding-over-the wedding, don't try me oo and come and say "man and wife" because homeboy is bound! As in bound to me and I am bound to him, simple!" There was of course some hissing involved and "can you imagine" all over the place but yeah, what's up with that?? "Man and Wife". Some people may read this and say I'm jobless, why yes, yes I am, but still its one of those things that comes through my mind and gets me upset. We all have those right? Random Thoughts?

Anywhichway sha, the new year is coming!! Or rather, we're going to meet it. Any way you look at it, 2012 is a few days away. I don't think I'll do the resolution list, they always fail me in the end and I end up feeling like a failure. I'll just do my normal reflection and view ways to change certain things. Hope everyone is enjoying the holidays!! Lerra pipuls!

Its Over!!!!!!

Hello people!!!! I know, I've been away. Not for too long I hope. But yeah, finals were eating me alive, but I survived!!! Kicked butt more like it! Anyway, finals are finally over and I'm finally able to allow my mind to wander to place other than the pathophysiology of acute renal failure or my priority diagnosis. I want to first thank all those who were wishing me the best. Arrigato. It was MUCHO GRANDE appreciated. (I very often mix languages together). I wanted to make a post but I tell you, if I did, I wouldn't be able to get off and then I wouldn't be in the state of "jolliness" that I'm in now so it was for the best, I believe. Once again thank you.
Well I really only came to post to let everyone know that finals did not kill me. I made it. I wish those who took or are still taking (sucks to be you) the best. See you pipul lerra when I have something berra to talk about. As you can tell, I am very much about to KO. Night!

Lerra pipuls.

Interruption

Want to make a quick pit stop and say hello. Hi
Finals are here!!! Shoot me much!!!!!!  It's only in my house that we call each other on cellphones to ask questions rather than going to the next room. Ok. Lerra pipuls!

Update: While I was supposed to be studying, I found this really nice quote on facebook (I did say I was supposed) and thought I should share. Here it goes: Happiness is something that muliplies when it is divided. [Paulo Coelho].

Ok. Back to studying. 

The After Effects

So yesterday was my last day of clinical and boy was it good. We didn't really do anything like normal clinical days, we had a poster to present so we were basically finishing it and just chilled out with the residents at the nursing home. Something that was surprising was one particular resident. For the past 6 weeks that we've been there, this lady has always been sad, crying, sedentary and she barely spoke and even when she did, it was to us the students and was very short. Yesterday, we got there and she was all smiles and going off, asking us questions, answering questions and such. We all had different theories to why she was like this but I'll share only one, said by yours truly, "Santa came last night "(haha you are free to laugh at my ridiculousness, but I did have a more serious one). In any case, it was such a turn around that it hurt to have to leave. Anyway, we finished up our project and the last tidbit assignments and finally presented the poster to two residents (referring to the elders) who were around and our clinical professor. It went great, considering that we had couldn't agree on anything at the beginning of the project. Once we finished the presentation, we handed the professor a picture, signed by all of us (this was her first clinical class) and did the whole group hug thing. Now it was at this point that everything hit me, the clinical was over and goodbyes were being said and honestly, it kinda hurt (I hate goodbyes, I prefer laters). So in the line of being who we were, we all went to say bye to the patients, particularly those we had cared for throughout the 6 weeks. Most of them were saddened and said they'll miss us and to be honest, I think all of us will miss them. They wished us good luck and the rest and we left, for the last time.

Four of us went to eat lunch, the only reason why we went was be brought food, thinking this would have been a regular clinical day. So we had what we coined "a cultural food awakening" We swapped food and the rest and after suffering food coma, went home.

After all this, only one thing is really stuck in my head, will I eventually become one of those that learn, understand, want to change the aspect in which care is given and then get lost in the system? Having now watched what goes down in a nursing home, having given care and tried to change areas where due diligence of care was not fully given, will I "forget", like some what is due to elders and all other individuals that I care for? On a very serious note, I have always been one of those that does not like to forget where I came from, what it took to get here and the learning that occurred on the way but seeing two nurses, sometimes one,  having to work with over 25 patients with their only source of help as the first-semester nursing students, its hard to think that aspects of care are not "forgotten".

By the grace of GOD, I won't. And if in any point in my career I do, I would hope that those that read and care will tell me so and if you're not good at confrontation, think of this less a confrontation and more of a reminder lol. I know at least two people that will not hesitate ;-)

P.s. I am very much aware of the strain on health professionals. There are a few of us and many patients and care must be given to them. But I just feel and hope that we all work in an environment where individuals are not just MR #s but as individuals. Yes, I am a freshman in this but please believe that I am not new to caring.

Anywhichway sha, it's Saturday and I have papers to write and studying to get done so lerra pipuls.

Hope you've had and will have a wonderful week, esp. for those with finals coming up.

So instead of studying for my Comp exam which I must get 100 in, (not even a joke, I have to get 100 to move forward in the program) I made some attempts in tying my geles. Lets just say the previous post  was like the best I've ever tied a gele. Anywhichway sha, its finally that time in the semester when  time is just dragging even though things are hitting from the left and right. Have projects to do, papers to type, and A LOT of studying to get done. Can't wait till its all over so I can just relax and not think of school whatsoever.

Anyway, yeah this post is short but hope you guys are having a good week or had a good week depending on how you look at it. In any case, lerra pipuls.

Days After Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving was good. Had some great apple pie courtesy the store my cousin bought it from. It was ummm ummm good! In all, family and food was good and I really did have fun, heard some stories that I hope in time eventually get lost in my brain o_O. The next day you ask, Friday or what I with the rest of America label as Black Friday? It was good. Rather than sleeping in after having Apple pie coma, (for some reason I baked a turkey, went to my cousin's house where she had two turkeys, yes two, and didn't eat any part of a bird, smh) I decided to wake myself up at 5am and go mega-sale hunting, mind you most shoppers were probably back from shopping at this time. Got a lot of deals and boy was I happy. Btw, did anyone hear about the lady who pepper-sprayed ppl to gain an advantage over other customers in a store? My response if I was there: someone, anyone should have held on to her so that when I finally cleaned my eyes in someway, I would have socked her in her jaw. How dare she?!?! But then again I wasn't there so... moving on. Anyway, on Saturday, in my marvelous efforts of procrastinating work, guess who learned how to tie a gele?? Me!! Courtsey my mom who is like the queen (in my house) of gele tying. For those who aren't aware of what it is, gele is a head wrap mostly worn during celebrations or gatherings by Nigerian women. I'm sure other nationalities wear them but I'm not aware of the particulars. In any case, here's a picture after numerous trials and errors

After finally getting it, my mom proclaimed that I must wear one at every event. Yeah right!
Hope everyone had a wonderful thanksgiving of weekend if you don't celebrate. Finally going to start all the work I've been putting off since Monday. Ahhh the sleepless nights begin, again.

P.S. If any one is wondering what's that l at the end of some words, its really an exclamation mark but the font I use doesn't show it as such.

Lerra pipus! (@HoneyDame: told you I'll use the term!)

Update: look who got better at tying geles. At this rate I'll surpass my mom (just thought about that again, that's not happening any time soon)

Pictures have been taken down.

Giving Thanks

Ahhhhh. Finally the break has started, but it really isn't a break since I have all this crap due when school resumes on Monday. T_T <--that's what I was doing when they listed all the assignments for class yesterday. In any case, I'm sitting here and thought I should do a post and since tomorrow is Thanksgiving day, what better topic right?? So what am I thankful for? 1. Family
While they drive me nuts, and I mean this in the most literal way, I love them all the same and I'm thankful for each and every one of my family members.

2. School
Yes I'm crazy. I admit it. Since family drives me nuts, school can only do what? Turn me into a squirrel. I am honestly thankful for school, particularly the course I'm studying. When I was growing up, I wanted to be a judge. That dream died when I realized how much I hated arguing, even though I do it so well with everyone. I just didn't wanted to be a judge honestly. I knew I wanted to make a difference but how? No clue. In any case, here I am 15 years later doing nursing and making a difference, for someone. Every moment doing Nursing, every time I go out and take on the responsibilities of a nurse, I know I'm making a difference in someone's life and that feeling is absolutely irreplaceable. I told you I'm a squirrel for school. I wrote more of school than I did for family. Smh mehn smh.

3. Strength
Whoyyyyyyyyy (this is strictly done in a Carribean accent, particularly my St. Lucians). I thank GOD for strength. The strength to pull through all that crap that I'm faced with in school, home, in my head. Ahhhhhh. I for no fit oooo.

Last but not least and HE doesn't get a number, GOD. Yes I thank GOD for being who HE is to me and more and words will not begin to express but HIM I give all the thanks.

There are sooooooo many other things that I'm thankful for but ummm yeah I just got lazy. Hope everyone has a Happy Thanksgiving and for those not celebrating, I'll celebrate for you with some jollof rice, fried rice, chicken, pepper soup, suya (not the original kind) and many more!!!

New Year's Resolution #10

I've always been the person to try and understand people and the situations that cause them to act the way they do. I strongly believe that people have their own type of character and if I can't agree to it or get along with it, I move on. No need for confrontation, argument or the things that people normally get into when they don't see eye to eye. But I've realized that some people need to be told about themselves, confronted and made aware of who they are and what they're doing because apparently they are "self-blind" (unaware of who they are or how they appear).
New Year's resolution number 10: Start telling people about themselves, sha it depends if I care enough :-)

Back to studying. I love Medication Administration!!!!!

Something

Its something I have, I don't like the way its going right now, but I wouldn't trade it.
Sigh, I'm out of it today.

Clinical, Train and the Meagre Things After

Got back from clinical about 2 hours ago. Boy was today hectic, well not really but this was like the first out of 3 days that I've been on my feet ALL DAY LONG. But it was all worth it. By the end of the day, I had given out meds and injected insulin, wrote up a care plan on the spot (can you imagine?? It normally takes me a full day!) and finished most of my scales (Lawton's, Katz's, etc. to measure depression and activity level). In all, I was on my feet doing something so I'm content.

Moving on, while I was on the train, there was this couple sitting a few seats away from where I was and apparently the lady, I suspect his girlfriend, was upset. After watching(yes I was watching, but not stalkerish/creepy) the couple for about 10 minutes, I understood what the lady was upset about. The dude was eyeballing and I mean this dude was salivating, glancing, basically stripping another girl with his eyes. Now to all the dudes out there, there is nothing wrong with checking out a girl, but eyeballing, especially in the presence of your partner and particularly when she may be talking and WILL notice that you are not paying attention, is rude. So yeah, he was eyeballing the girl. After what seemed about 10 minutes and 4 stops later, the girl (the one being eyeballed) got up and exited the train and the dude's eyes unhesitatingly followed her. His girlfriend became infuriated because at this point she was calling his name to get his attention but as evidence has shown he was clearly not interested in his lady and therefore could not hear her. When the doors of the train finally closed "tuh tun" *the sound the train makes*, there it came, a serious up the head slap. This man was bald so the slap seemed so much more serious. I heard it and though I could see them, I wasn't that close so I shouldn't have heard it. It seemed like that slap woke him up and there I, and the man sitting next to me started rolling with laughter. I mean it was just to funny, especially the look on his face when he finally realized he had a lady, particularly his girlfriend, sitting right next to him. His girlfriend went off, and I mean off. If she was a cartoon, her face would be red and steam would be blowing out of her ears. She started yelling at the dude, cursing him, calling him all manner of names some of which were pig, manwhore, good for nothing jerk, jackass and many more. Mind you everyone on the train is looking at her and her dude. After the dude pointed out that she was making a fool of herself, she turns around and starts yelling, at no one in particular, that everyone needs to mind their business, yada yada yada. In my view, she brought her business to be minded by everyone when she started yelling. But hey, the lady is upset.

Anyway I eventually got off the train, got home ate some delicious beans and fish with rice and stew and did this post. Hope everyone is having a wonderful Friday and hope the weekend is great too!

P.S. Happy Veterans Day!! :-)

That Moment

You know that moment, when you know in the back of your mind that you need to get up and go study but in the front of your mind, your bed seems so much better and you're telling yourself that an extra 30 mins of sleep will not do anything detrimental? I'm having that right now. My eyes are going to turn red but I have an exam so I have to deal with it right? T_T I detest school!

Hope everyone will or is having a good day though!

-a tired, angry student

Loving Me

So I've been mulling over what this post would be. I had the idea and then when it came to writing my mind went blank so I'll make this short.

I love myself. It took me a while to say that and know that it is true. I am flawed in more ways than I'm possibly aware of but I am blessed in ways that are indescribable. I have family and friends all around me that make me upset and stress me out and even make me run mad but a day without them is like a second without air. I hate school but hate being away from the work during holidays. I'm weird like that. I could do to exercise more, eat better and sleep better. I have been hurt and I have hurt. I console myself by saying today will be better than yesterday and tomorrow shall be better than today. I am a Christian and I know I've made mistakes but I'm learning and growing and I know that counts for something. I lay my heart before GOD on an irregular basis. I am many things that I just don't have the energy to explain but I am who I am created by the I AM THAT I AM and I love myself.
Here's a pic that my "friend" did. Thought I should share.

Being Boring

After 7 weeks of school, I realized I have done nothing other than eat, sleep, go to school, study, write papers, take quizzes and exams. That's it, nothing more and nothing less. I have not gone out, other than the store to buy food and classes, I have seen none of my friends AND me and my computer have developed a habit of looking for websites just to see something other than this dreary life I've been living. So having ran out of websites that interest me I decided to write a little post which was a big fib. Maybe to make it seem that this blog, better yet, my life, was, somewhere along the line, interesting and I wasn't just another random individual with no life who wanted to take up space on the internet. Well, as I was writing, I decided not to post it. It was stupid to try and be someone I really wasn't. Yes maybe once in a while I would like to be living a different life, doing different things but I will always and forever want to be Osas. Lying about my life is one of the things I don't want to do, especially on a blog where I really don't need to. Anyway so yes, my life has been and will be for the next 2 years be somewhat dreary and boring, but maybe, keyword maybe, there will be moments that I can share that will amuse you.

Ughhhh

Up since 1 am. Writing up a care plan. Ughhhh its so frustrating because I have a midterm and then a quiz later. Which kind school be dis mehnn. The sad part is that as much as the school has piled this massive load on my head, its kind of my fault that I didn't get most of the work done. Been lollygagging all week so its actually my fault. All the days of making full use of my Netflix subscription, catching up on sweet sleep that I've been missing and randomly browsing the internet are all bitting me in the ass right now. Ughhhhh school, why do you hate me so!??!
Anyway I need to go back to work before blogging ends up biting me in the ass when I'm looking at the conversion question on my Med Admin midterm.
Have a nice day guys, my HIS grace I will.

P.s. I'm a nursing student that's the reason for "care plan" and "Med Admin".

So I Had To...

I decided to delete all the past posts because in reality, none of them made sense. They were childish thoughts that roamed in my then (hopefully I am at liberty to say that)childish mind. I'm not ashamed of them, but I don't want them up here, its my prerogative. Thank you very much. Any way here I go again, with a blog hopefully I'll stick to it and not end up like one of those bloggers who post every other month.

By the way "Adede" in my language means Old woman, pronounced as /ay-day-day/ (you can't Google this and find the correct pronunciation but yh there you have it).




Peace Love and Harmony!!